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For D.

August 22, 2010

I’m taking a break for a bit. Yes, the kids head back to school this week and it is sure to bring on a fair amount of stress.

But, I head back to work tomorrow….to face grief counselors,  many tears,  and the empty desk of my friend and work partner, Deea.

Deea lost her life last Friday.  At work.  The one place where she told me she felt “normal” after years of battling an illness.   She was smart, sweet, and such a positive spirit.   She was a true warrior.

We’d meet on Mondays.  I’d talk about my kids and their latest escapades.  And she would always listen with a smile on her face.  I’d rattle on about how I barely got anything done…not always realizing that the simplest task could fatigue Deea.  I’m so mad at myself for not stopping the prattle and instead let her tell me about her woes.  But, she rarely did.  She always turned it back to me.

We made a good team. We worked well together.  We became close over the years.  And now, she’s gone.

I’m heading back to the place where a picture of her sits above my desk.  Where my calendar holds our weekly status meetings and our monthly lunches.  Where I’d wait to receive the instant message from her during a conference call.  There will be reminders of her everywhere — especially as I look at the pained faces of my co-workers.

I’m sure she wouldn’t want me to take a break  — I recall her simple reply to me after I told her about all the crazy things I wanted to do for my sister’s baby shower: “You are a creator, Kacey.  It’s who you are.”

If I could talk to her now, I’d tell her about the impact she made on me.  She gave me perspective, she made me stronger, and she gave me solace knowing that I could always confide in her.

I’ll miss you dearly, D.

I hope you are at peace.

PS — I am linking up to another post about Deea, beautifully captured by Rita.

6 Comments leave one →
  1. angie permalink
    August 22, 2010 10:44 pm

    kacey, so very sorry to hear you’ve lost a dear friend. i’ll be thinking of you tomorrow while you are at work. it won’t be easy, but you will get through. saying prayers for Deea’s family and for you, too… love, angie

  2. jane permalink
    August 23, 2010 7:57 am

    Kacey, jsut putting your thoughts on paper telling others about Deea is a great way to share her spirit. She was a great person and we are better people for knowing her. You never saw her without a smile on her face even on her hardest days. Thanks for sharing, it put a smile on my face to read this today.


  3. August 23, 2010 8:48 am

    Kacey, Deea embraced life so fully. I think I am not alone in thinking she was here to teach us what a special gift life is, and to go after it full-force. You were a dear friend to her.


  4. Mom permalink
    August 23, 2010 4:37 pm

    What a beautiful tribute to your co-worker Deea. I have tears escaping my eyes now. I remember you speaking of her many times and how much you thought about her and how she worked through her illness. I am sure she knows how you feel about her. I believe the soul lives on and knows those sentiments we carry about people we love but forget to tell them how much we appreciate them.
    Let me tell you now, that I love and appreciate all you have done and will do for your sister and for me. You mean the world to me.

  5. Lisa permalink
    August 24, 2010 9:10 pm

    Big hugs to you friend…

  6. August 25, 2010 10:24 am

    I am terribly sorry to here about your friend. She sounds lovely and I know you are missing her.


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